Four Leaf Clover

Finally, RP-Japan Festival is over, we’re back at school lessons, quizes, exams, and lots and lots of requirements again. GOD, this is going to be tough. T__T fun days are over and it’s torture time again. Fu Fu Fu.

Friday, aug31 was the last day of our festival, at the beginning of the festival I was really bored and all I can think was to go home and watch tv or face my PC 24hrs. But, alas, at the last day of the festival, i had fun, though, aug30, i had fun with the japanese cooking, they featured the "OYAKODON" and it’s really delicious. I was surprised that Japanese cooking has no OIL in it, so that’s why they have long lives… XD

Well, today, i’m suffering from body pain, WTF, who wouldn’t?! I mean, playing basketball and also we dances the bon odori over and over again with the stand up position for 2 hours, tell me who wouldn’t feel any such PAIN??? Anyway, even so, i dont have any regrets at least I had fun. XD

Also, I’ve learned alot from the past few days, though I’ve been really a great joke for everyone, it’s not that bad, at least I left them with a good smile, even though, I made a fool of myself when I asked, "Asa ang san pedro church?" when it happens to be just infront of me. XD

Such great time, but such little time to study and finish all requirements. Man, this is killing me… the pressure is rather suffocating… T_T

This is so unexpected, if you read this article you would really be astounded on the things that I’m talking about, I mean, I’m being me in this article but still it’s not me on making such a sensical stuff like this:

"

After reading the article, now I realized that the world has changed so much. I never really noticed that there were changes at all. But now understood, it happened on September 11, when the

World

Trade

Center

and the Pentagon was bombed. People built a great fear on the faces of millions of people, not on

America

but all of us in the world. There are great changes such as building new security rules and other stuffs that could help maintain the security of all people and establish a great defense towards the terrorism and their attacks towards mankind. It gave great trauma to us, and before the 9/11 attacks don’t have such fears, we are free to go anywhere, but because of that terrorist attacks we were very careful not to be part of mass killings of the terrorist. Vulnerability was replaced and our belief on liberalism was changed, we thought the collapse of communism was long gone, but after the 9/11 it was brought back again because we believed that the communism was long gone during the Cold War.

It is in fact that the Black Tuesday was the cause of the immediate change of the world. Likewise, after the event, economist immediately appeared with a photograph of the collapsed of the world trade center with a headline “The Day the World Changed”. Most likely, United States, no the world, has focused on terrorist attacks noting that this was particularly troublesome for the United States, and that US are the most powerful country all over the world, as I’ve seen, US has been the most leading country nowadays and even before the WWII, since they were the ones who has done most to destroy borders and walls, to shape a world market, to promote freedom of communications, information, and movement.

The problem in the strategy of the American is that they were too judicial and they follow too much in a diplomatic way just to capture Bin Laden who’s the mastermind of all the bombings in

America

. Massoud death, was the cause of the success of his enemy by eliminating him, but the fighting capabilities of his allies didn’t affect at all after his death after all Massoud left great commanders to repel and ensure the continuation of resistance against the terrorist.

Though,

America

built their greatest weapon to defeat the

Iraq

. Americans built a

MOAB

bomb which was the reason why the Iraqis surrendered immediately. The

MOAB

bomb was a non-nuclear bomb, but, it was indeed the mother of all bombs. After descending the bomb in Baghdad and create a great fissure in the ground about 150 feet much more greater than the BLU 88, Iraq immediately surrendered after that, to me, that’s how powerful the US are, even though, they descended the bomb they descended it to the isolated area were no people can get hurt from the explosion but even though it was far away from the people, the city that was miles away could still feel the vibration coming from the explosion. So, the world changed indeed, advanced countries as well as the developing countries are much aware and getting ready to protect themselves against any danger though we can’t deny the fact that everyone of us are traumatized by the events that had happened. After so many years, all fear had been brought back again, and all we can do is be aware and alert from the upcoming events of our life."

So tell me, after reading this would you believe I was the one who’s writing this? Of course I did this okay, I would never copy others opinion, though, it’s still unbelievable for me to say such gibberish. He he he.

Many things had happened to me this past few days, miserable and happy things. Mostly, it’s badluck but for me it’s only natural to encounter those things. Since, in life, there’s no such thing as free-from-any-problem, because, all of us will have to face our own problems in life. But what’s worst is that, it’s my first time to have lost an important thing. Most people would just forget about it because it’s just a cellphone that was lost and they’re glad that their life was saved. For me, that cellphone was part of my life, so a part of life was taken away. And the worst part is, someone from my ex-boardmates could have done it.

Nevertheless, I was sick at that time and it’s merely my fault to begin with since I forgot to bring it when I went home. But I was so sick that time that all I wanted is to go home, but I remembered I just left it there under my pillows. But I dont really want to discuss this things over and over again because it’s sickening. Whoever the thief is, I wish you’d just go to hell. It’s your karma not mine.

Misfortune comes everyday, that it’s hard for me to state each event. All I can remember is when I went home last day when it was foolish of me to ride on to that jeep that it’s not even going to where my destination is, so eventually, I was lost and walked far just to look for jeep’s. Took me long enough to reach the bus terminal. And I arrived home last night so hungry and exhausted.

But then, there’s still happy moments like I deposited an amount of money to buy stuffs and a certain amount of money for the donation to PAWS which will help the animals alot. And, I had taken the mock exam, though, it’s quite hard when I took the third part of the exams and all I did was to depend on my instincts since I haven’t studied the conjunctions yet. But, it doesn’t matter, all that counts is that I did the best that I can.

Lastly, RP-Japan is coming, and I’m very excited and enthusiast to attend that event. The first years like me would wear HAPPI, not YUKATA, since it’s too early for us to wear it. Probably, when we reach second year then we can wear it. But I’m not sure. But the thing that I’m excited about is that there’s gonna be a cultural convention about IGO (GO) lessons, alas, I can learn about GO, ever since I watched Hikaru no Go, i was enthusiastic of learning it, but since there’s no GO here since selected areas of ASIA are only playing that, such as Korea, Japan, and China. So, all I did was wait until I can go to Japan and learn the game there. But now, it’s not just a dream, it’s the real thing! So yeah, i’m super excited and I can’t wait to see a real GO board.

Current cravings are Guitar, I wish I can play guitar too, and I’d love to hear Ichido-sensei play it since Tinchan said he’s good, not just good but a PRO. Wow, i really like people who can play guitar. It’s quite a talent. But of course, I’m still happy of what am I right now, whether I know or not, I dont care. But still I’m planning to learn how to play guitar and soon enough, I’ll buy a guitar with my own money. Probably this coming december.

As of now, I’m worried about my presentation in Humanities. I can’t find any ideas how to make my drawings, whether I should color them with my own hands or just use adobe photoshop. But I guess I would use my computer skills instead since it’s the easiest and the best way to handle things. So there, that’s everything I guess… oh yeah, about IR, it’s really quite disturbing, but I guess, somehow I’m beginning to have interest about this subject.

-Fukano Ayumi- 

I’ve counted the times I’ve been in such a badluck this past few days or even weeks, or rather a month. He He He. Specially since I’m having a bad day with this cough of mine, I’m having pain behind my neck, my mom told me this was cause of my intense coughing and it’s normal to feel pain, she also said, sometimes you feel pain in your stomach too. This is beginning to give me a hard time and a nuissance too.

Anyway, besides of having cough and flu, I’m also experiencing this situation wherein, my cellphone had been stolen (a week ago, between tuesday night or wednesday), I never experienced this before so it’s very hurtful to have lost something that is dear to you. Yes, even if that cellphone is just 3120, it has still sentimental value to me, since, that cellphone came from my mother and pass it on to me, also, that cellphone reminds me of my friends I talk to each day, not only losing the phone itself but also the sim (which is Globe) that has 1070 worth of load; not only that, the cellphone contains the important dates of my friends birthdays which some of them I have totally forgotten, which is very troublesome in my part.

Aside for having those terrible things to me, I also had this problem between my computer and my internet connection, not only that I erased the file that was on my flash drive without copying it and having a back-up file. Gosh, this is totally bad month for me, also, my internet seems really slow that even if we complain a hundred times to the customer’s services or the wireless center itself it’s no use at all. And for the love of God, my PC seems really having almost every second of having a virus, my memory seems getting very low. I’m beginning to think of formatting it all over again but I guess I’ll wait until my PC’s all down which is really irrelevant, right? But since that’s the only option I can think of right now.

Thus, that’s the story of all the misfortune I get this month of August. To think I dreamt about eating cake, and according to the translation of dreams, eating cake in a dream means "prosperity of health" but why did I have to suffer fever, cough and cold? He he he, I guess, dreams are not usually true after all.

Do you believe in ghost?
Well if I were to answer that I would say, "I do"
Because, in our boarding house we’re experiencing some weird happenings in our rooms wherein everytime we’re very noisy (unbearable) someone knocks on our door… but the scary part is, when we open the door, no one’s there…

How can we explain that?
I do believe in some natural disturbances but that one was different, I mean, a wind could never knock three times in a door. Unless someone is pulling a frank on us just to scare us off but who would dare to do such act in the middle of the night?

I don’t know what to believe now, I don’t know what to do…
Anyhow, at least no one’s hurt I would act calmly as if nothing’s happened but if an act of hurting people has occured I would definitely find another place to stay whether they like it or not.

Somehow, I wish I can exorcise them, but neither I’m asking the god’s to give me power to see them, I’m happy to what I have now; unable to see them. Never in my life I would let myself to be a medium. I don’t want to be a medium… but more or less, if I’m like Subaru Sumeragi, then I would reconsider. Ha Ha Ha.

Ever since I was born I was blessed with such an outstanding parents who feed and nurtured me. God was always there to support and guide me through all the hardships of my life. For the past 19 years, I’ve experienced alot, dreamt alot, and suffered alot. Every single day I would be so pessimistic that all I can think of was to give up and too inferior to the people that surrounds me.

I thought, "that’s it, this is all I can be… no more, no less" but that idea was wrong… after all, proven and tested that when you aim something and you feel you really have to do it, you can achieve that goal.

For the first time, I’ve achieved something that’s unexpected, which I truly doubt since I’ve expected it from the very beginning. What the heck… it’s senseless, anyway, what I’m trying to say is, even though I’m expecting it to happen, I’m not absolutely sure that it would really happen (especially in REAL life) I mean, I didn’t thought I could get a 100% grade in my prelim exam in nihongo.

Anyway, that’s why, I want to tell everyone, we should try to think optimistically and not by any chance give up because we think we can’t really do it.

I want to share a story which I was really moved, I’ve seen this just a while ago in TV in NHK world, at first I’ve watched it in japanese language which it was very difficult to understand because it’s too fast I could hardly hear them, but then, 9am in the morning today, it was dubbed into english and it was a documentary about an 80-year old, Kamezaburo Harano-san who didn’t experienced his youth on  his young age because of the world war back then, he said that he was guilty for being alive since his comrades in battle were dead, according to him, in order to atone from his guilt over the years, he had aimed to get his youth by traveling entire Japan with his bicycle, with 40kg of gear, he travelled japan with his bike, meeting tons of people in the road, he had given them such touching words that could enlighten everyone’s puzzled mind or had already given up from the difficulties they’ve face each day, with his words, everyone respected him until the fateful day wherein 20KM away from his home in Tokyo, wherein he could almost completed his journey over 14 months of cycling entire Japan, he died in an accident in Otari, Nagano Prefecture, wherein he was hit by a truck inside a tunnel.

I was surprised that, "wow, an 80-year old man can actually do that? In just mere bicycle and to think he also brought 40kg of things…" I mean, why would us people with such small problem would easily give up when such people like Harano-san even at his age he almost reached his goal if he hadn’t got killed by the truck. So, as a conclusion, if we people would tend to realize our dreams and aim for it, we also could achieve it, so I’ve learned alot by Harano-san’s experience, it was very hard work for such an 80year old man to travel alone with a bicycle, but he proved that HE CAN, but the most outstanding words he had said to two people he met was to enjoy their youth while they still can since he himself was unable to have his youth back then.

See, people can be outstanding creatures when we have a goal, so, thanks to Harano-san, I’ve been thinking alot, thanks to him, I was enlightened, even from his death he had save me from the depths of despair. =3

anyway, I want to thank a certain person who gave colors in my life recently, even though, I know that he still doesn’t know me, at least, seeing him each day gives me the reason to smile and lighten my day. ^^

Yagami light was so pathetic in the last episode of death note, i cant believe he would act that way, he’s so… ew, he sucks, i mean after all that crimes he had committed he was just saying that it was a trap set by near?

Why is that he’s so afraid to die and be caught? If he’s too powerful like he think he is, then why don’t he face Near? Even before L died, he feared L’s knowledge that he even asked for the Shinigami’s help. If he’s so powerful, like a god like he think he is, i think the most relevant way to settle things up is to face his enemy.

He had the nerve to lie in front of the people including Near. I hated Light, i thought he was okay that his way of thinking can be applicable, i know, I can be like that too, I mean, all of us people would want such power, a power to manipulate all things and can obtain everything from that power.

But because he can’t do anything because his knowledge are not enough and for the fact that L surpassed him and saw his true identity, he seeked help to eliminate L. I hated him that, he’s a loser… a sore loser… he can’t accept defeat, he fears death to think he takes away life so easily… he didn’t even think of those people who asked for forgiveness and another chance to change. Like Near said, Light is just a murderer, a mass murderer… he can’t do anything on his own… at first I thought he had the power and the intelligence to change the rotten world, but he’s one of those people who rot the world. He doesn’t deserve to be the GOD like he think he is. Seeking for help isn’t appropriate if you truly think you excelled.

Also, Light conveyed something like "I’m the only one who can do it". Really Light, everyone can do it, everyone who thinks that way (like you do I mean) can do it. But, you went too far, you went crazy and became a psychotic killer, you even pushed your father to his own death. You were the one who killed your own father… you’re despicable, and the most pathetic thing that happened to you is that, the one who took your own life was the one who drop the notebook, the real owner of the death note—RYUK. Anywho, i still symphatize you, I know how you feel about the rotten world, everyone thinks that way it’s just, you went too far, far out of the limitations of men. So again, Mellow x Near (as they combined they surpassed L, but they knew that if they worked individually they can never surpass L) defeated you. And that ends your life. So Kira, I don’t hate you for doing that (for using the Death Note, I would do the same thing if I were to have a death note, it’s just… your way of thinking is too far for a normal human would think, i don’t want to sound hypocrite so I wrote (more likely; typed) what’s on my mind, but truly, every people who can find a death note would be curious of how true is that thing, nonetheless, we can only realize it when we already have committed something unnecessary and we can smell the blood in our hands). But, I simply pity Light for asking someone to help him get out of that situation. It’s so pathetic that I want to puke. >_>

Really, people (esp. Filipinos) can be curious. So whether or not you disagree with this statement it’s up to you, correct me if I’m wrong but I know I’m not, all of us wants the same power like what Light have. So don’t deny that you don’t want to try using the death note yourself because that can be called a lie. ^,^

After one of studying at MKD, i had proved that i really belong there. True, i find it difficult to counteract with other people and some of the teachers but at least, i found my way to my success. There, i can hope and i can be able to stand on my own. It’s still difficult for me because i still miss my home and my family, and my friends here in Digos. But, studying there makes my life worth while.

Unlike before, I was always slacking in my studies, i never opened a book when it’s not needed. But because I’m aiming something and I want to prove something, i learned that studying can be fun and you can learn something new if you read, read, and read. Of course, there’s still the lazy attitude of mine but instead of letting myself do what I want, something urges me to study; and so, i ended up studying. Besides, there’s no other choice but to study, my life there is boring, no tv, no computer, no internet, nothing… nothing at all. So instead of staring at the horizon or onto the ceiling i ended up staring at my notes, books and other stuffs.

Or if not, I somehow manage to go at the library every now and then. Wow, studying at MKD changed me alot. Alot of things have change. Not only in my academic status but also in my financial status; I don’t go too much in malls or some places, i always go to school or in the boarding house, that’s how boring I am there, but I’m happy; at least, i can keep all of my money and can buy alot of things from it.

Also, for the first time, i had joined a club, or is it a club? Well, i joined JICHIKAI, a somewhat, CAT in college or I think it’s more like of a student council, whatever… well, I’m still on probation but all i know is that I’m now a part of the Student Council’s Marshall who’ll pertain the peace and order when there’s a festivities held in school.

Though, i’m still planning to join the MANGA club if there’s one. Rumors says that the manga club at MKD will open and will be looking for members this month of July. So there, I have so many plans in my college life there in MKD unlike before that I always keep the motto: "come what may" (and do nothing) when I was still in PCDS, but right now, I’m not just gonna sit around and do nothing, as of now, I’m gonna do my best and prove to everybody I’m smart and I can do anything as long as I put my heart to it.

So now, my motto will be, "To move is to succeed". So there it goes, my newest entry from the month of July. My first entry this month. I’ve been slacking in my blog too, well you can’t blame me if I don’t have any idea at all. Anyways, I want to greet my new friends in MKD. I salute the best Japanese School in the Country, best of the best Japanese School in the Philippines (as what they have said, well I do believe them, for the fact that MOST of the teachers, I mean, ALL of the teachers are very intelligent, not only intelligent but also talented and yet had gone to abroad many times! Sobrang BIGATIN sila!! Also, most of them are graduates from Ateneo, one of the most prestigious school in the Phil. as what I’ve read in the transcription on my Philippine History book made by Ms. Flora Mae Cabacungan, a very highly intelligent person, really, you can already see it from her looks, you can distinguish a person if they’re smart or not, but of course, always stick to the saying, "don’t judge a book by it’s cover". So, till here, I don’t have anything to write. Anyways, I hope my prelim scores in all of my subjects are high.

P.S.

I want to congratulate Jhonalin Calatrava, because as of this day, she’s fullfledge nurse, char, I mean, it’s their capping and pinning day…. so congrats BF, and goodluck to your chosen career and I will also do mine, it’s tough but I know I can. Till then, Mata ne!

-Meari Jyoi Yappu-

Finally after how many days, I’m finally at home. I missed being around in my room, chating online friends, downloading stuffs and other stuff i get so busy in the internet. As well as the things I usually do in my house, i missed all of it. I miss hanging out with my friends, sharing stuffs and helping them in times of need. Nevertheless, it’s fun at my new school too. It’s a new environment for me. It’s not fun as much I’m having fun at my room but I think being in that high standard school says it all. The teachers, almost all of them are graduates from ateneo. There are japanese teachers that uhh, kinda strict but has good character and teaches well.

In my first week, I discovered that its hard when you parted with your loved ones. For me, i cried whenever I’m alone in our room, it’s quite boring at first when I first arrived at the boarding house. But when I met them (boardmates) my boredom or the loneliness inside of me slowly fades away even though, at that point I still miss my parents so much especially the things they do for me and their comfort and their support towards me.In times when my parents call me, when I hear their voices, I want to cry but I stop myself before the tears flow in my eyes. When I do that, i told myself to be strong and that this things are for my own good/sake. If I can’t be separated from my family I can’t stand on my own and end up always depending on them.

I believe this loneliness will fade as soon as class starts, because, that school is highly competitive in times of academic performances especially in Japanese language. Though, at least, im proud to say that even though I’m still a freshman in that school and still progressing in learning Japanese language, I’m still proud to say that I have backgrounds (slight) in that course. I know some japanese words and japanese writings and also I know some japanese culture and their history. But without the help of anime, i wouldn’t reach this kind of level. Though, im afraid of some teachers because of they’re rules and strictness inside the class but I guess I can somehow pull it off, as long as I study I guess.

So about friends, my friends as of now are only few but true I guess, I can’t blame them if I have no friends at all in class because I’m still a new student. But I met this person who’s a transferee student like me, she came from ateneo and took up engineering (CE), she’s good in drawing, and she has the same interest like me, though she draws well, it’s like a real manga to me… I envied her but I guess talent differs each people, somehow, she’s rich that she can afford stuff for her manga drawings or doujinshis so that’s understandable. Though, I’m proud to say that she’s the first one that I became friend in class.

Moreover, my friends that’s close to me as of now are my boardmates, they’re fun to be with and very nice to me too. We share food, stories and etc. Even though I miss the things I usually do back then but I guess my new life in MKD is fun and gives me time to depend on myself. Without it, I won’t live long as much as I struggle for my on survival in the busy days of my new college life.

So as of now, my life depends on how I mold it, also depends on the luck that I have. But I guess, i should believe in the saying, "there’s no coincidence in this world, it’s what we call fate." So i guess, I must believe in my fate, that in this course, I’m making my own existence by the help of my strong will to survive. So, believe it or not, survival of the fittest, the strong shall live the weak shall die. ^^,

God Bless us all.
-fukano ayumi-

I had a good dream, and that dream became reality, it was not as pleasingly as it looks but that dream for me is the best thing that had happened in my life. Because of the heartaches i’ve been through, i came to realize that it was nothing but a nightmare, I came to my senses and I was saved by the people around me. I wasn’t been sucked up from the pits of hell that I thought I was in, instead, someone took for my place in order to save me. I thanked that person but at the same time felt sorry for it. I can’t reveal the exact details about it but I just want to express my gratitude by thanking that person. Though, i must admit I want to help that person from any means for her self-destruction. I am a strong person, and I believe I would never do things that is beyond my limit. True, I can love a person more than myself, but only for those people that are worth loving for. I believe I made a mistake for loving someone that is unworthy, but because of someone, I wasn’t totally blinded. If so, then I couldn’t forgive myself for being so stupid. I believe that I’m intelligent and no such being can ever devour my existence or my innocent youth. Though, I am also thankful that someone like Jiro and other members of Fahrenheit came to my life. It may seemed that I’m blinded by them but at least because they’re worthy to fall in love with. With Jiro’s personality and looks, no one can withstand to say no for a guy like him, he’s like the almost-perfect kind of guy for me, with a nice body and has the sporty look, though he got at least a minus points for not being too good for basketball but at least I think he knows how to play soccer or if not, he knows how to play the guitar. He’s also the most talented guy I know so far. Also, if not Jiro then I would think for Teppei, he’s ever cute face and adorable smile makes any woman go crazy. He knows how to guitar as well, and he’s pretty good in basketball I think. Or if not Teppei, then what if Kibum, he has the equivalent of 180 IQ, also he’s a good actor and can speak english fluently, he knows how to dance and rap, difficulty in singing but at least he’s a member of a known band in korea. If not Kibum then, how about Jun, he’s well-known japanese singer/actor in Japan and other countries in Asia. I dont know how sporty he is but I know how well he dances. So there… my qualities of a guy is too high that it’s impossible for me to love someone or be loved. But it doesnt bother me, for now my attention is on my career and dreams and not just a cinderella-story that everyone wants to have. >_>